I MISS YOU......I REALLI REALLI DO.....but...where are you?!

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wat haf i been doing??!!

sigh...... wat haf i been doing man... like soooo rotting away for the week... and mr andy just told mi tt i dun haf the ssa swimming cert cos i din join any meets for the year.... FREAK! inter-branch...inter-con....sch nats not counted meh?!?! bloody shit... den last time mr chong say i dun haf the cert cos i nv swim inter-branch for tp... wtf..... wat's wrong with all these adults man?! sigh.. so sld i still go for the ssa award thing??!! like tt i am onli gg for the polo one liao lor... but actually not even confirm if i will get the polo cert or not..... DIAM!! if i am gg there for nothing... den i am NOT GOING lor.... yifern said nobody realli cares abt the cert... neither do i.... but the thing is.... IF U ARE BEING CALLED DOWN TO GO FOR THE CEREMONY... DEN U JOLLY WELL GET SMT OR ELSE U ARE WASTING UR TRIP DOWN THERE RITE?! freak.... anyway.. screw them all... sigh.... let's see wat haf i done for this whole week man... hmm.... i think i forgot wat i haf done on monday and tuesday liao.... but after tt.........

wednesday - i went for 3 interviews for sales jobs and managed to get all 3 but of cos... i am picking the best one for myself... wahhahaha... den after tt went trg with dyan at queenstown & went for dinner with ziqian...t-chien.. sulynn and val after trg....

thursday - met up with yifern and jingyi in the afternoon and went cine pastamania for lunch and then went shaw tower to watch 'oceans 12'.... (for this... there's special mention for yifern who FELL ASLEEP HALFWAY THRU THE SHOW..... well done.... totally perfect...) but well... all thanks to jingyi for recomending us such a boring show.... wahahaahah..... -_-'''

friday - helped sub ah wan at seiyu bugis level 3 from 4-9pm den watched 'kung fu hustle' at 945 with jingyi and den i stayed over at her hse... playing mahjong with her... her bro and her bro's gf....

sat - went to bedok ntuc with jingyi in the morning den met up with ming at night and watched 'meet the fockers' with her and den went home at abt 3 plus (considering that the show started at 1.30am).....

quite a fun week....wahahhaha.... alright.... i am still damn slpy from ytd's movie.... yawnz.. but think i am gg back to mi amk house now to get mi mini i-pod... and den set off to go for tt stiupiadz ssa award ceremony... shall slp on the train man...hope dyan ray they all got go lor... if not i can realli just rot there half the time man... sigh.... :<

sooooooooooooo broke!!

argh.... i feel so broke... went to get glenn his birthday presents on friday.... went all the way to jurong pt at boon lay to get the chess set.... den the shop closed down.... after tt yiming dua mi say suntec got shop... well done lor... the shop din even exist.... so in the end went to ask ah wan and i got it on sat... den after getting it early in the morning... i went to arena warehouse to collect his tracksuit..... den waited near raffles place mrt station there for all of them... msg glenn but he din reply!!! argh.. hate waiting... anyway... i got too sianz of waiting so i went home to slp first den met up with wan ah choo.. boobs and glenn in the evening at orchard there to celebrate his bdae! whahaaah... den we went to glenn's hotel to celebrate his bdae with his family in the hotel room... soooo reminded mi of our sanya sammakki and year end swimming trips...

hahaa... we also stay in hotel and will party whole nitez for the last nitez of our trip... argh... miss those times... mi jacqi tania weiling will havoc in our rooms lah!!!!! den we will haf lotsa cup noodles... oreo... H2O.... pocari sweat etc etc.... lotsa fun...lotsa food... and chris...gary chen... chen ann and many other of our club guys will come and play with us too... most common game was truth or dare.... den we play dai dee and mahjong sometimes too... den got uno and all .... hahahaa.. miss those times man.... all those silly crushing stuff all originated from those trips... and each trip we actually come out with this new-crush thing... hahahahaa... so fun.... well.... realli nice nice memories... heeeheeh

sigh.... but back to reality.... life's quite bad... i need to work like mad... just coaching swimming is not enough man... i need to get a permanent job with rather good pay one.. whahhaaha... sigh.... help help help... all u ppl out there must intro mi good good jobs k?!??!?!!?! sianz!! i need to move house too.... glenn and da ge better come and help mi ban1 jia1 man... hahaahha.... shall go sing mi heart out now... blast mi speakers... hhahaahhaaahaha......

i feel soooo tired.....

sigh... since i came back from hk.. i've been feeling soooo busy with stuff.... rite after mi holiday was grad nitez... den after that went clubbing the following day.... and den there was the polo friendly matches with the aus and malaysian team clashing with glenn's church camp.... and now i am gg california fitness everyday to workout and learn those hip hop dancing..kick boxing etc etc.... den following tt will be swimming and polo trg everyday... though i have no goal in swimming liao.. but i just like to go and train cos i love mi jiao lian... wahahaha....

grad nitez was fun... except the part tt everyone called mi a catwoman.... FREAK!! argh... nvm... den it was the nitez at chinablack... was so shocked to see yiming... alex sim.. alex ko and jia jie they all there... wahahha... and the polo matches were alright lah... at first tio black face from the older gals (wat's their freaking prob??!!)...but after a few matches we became quite alright liao (i guess).... hmm..... glenn's church camp was soooo fun... though i din like the games and all...but the speaker was damn good... wahahhhaha.... and jeremy (glenn's church mate) was funky too... gave such a wonderful speech... i wonder if i can learn to love the hard-to-love ppl... wat made mi enjoy jeremy's workshop was that he was also an onli child (same as HIM) and that he himself also admitted that those who are onli child are very hard to love cos they tend to be very self-centred and think that the whole world onli evolved ard themselves... sigh...

toking abt HIM.... i met HIM at the pool and flashes of memories came back to me... ray said HE always look at chio bus etc and i realised that i just cant stop thinking abt HIM.... when can this just ever stop?!!?? sigh... i hope to get out of this abyss soon....i feel so tired.... both physically and mentally... :<