Bitchy Edison

read the nus mail edison sent... haha... almost laughed to death lo!!! fainted... super bitchy... din know anyone cld match me!!! Shall share it with you guys...

Dear Captains,

I just learned from Marcus that my 100m backstroke race was not recorded and I would like to know why I have been excluded. He said that he requested that you guys record the race but was turned down.

What is the purpose of recording the swimmers' races? Isn't it to help with improving the swimmer's strokes? I didn't realise my strokes were that perfect that I do not need any help. Or am I so slow that you can't be bothered?

I thought all senior swimmers who come down for training will be recorded? Why the double standards? Have I not been making trainings? Besides, why is there a need to segregate between the team in such a way? Don't you think that it will alienate some members?
I would like to know whose decision it was to exclude me. And the reason for doing so. I was the only person swimming in that race and you had lots of film left, so why was it so necessary to leave me out?

This is not about wanting to see myself on film, but rather, a question of my presence in the team.

Edison

This is absolutely bitchy to the max... cannot stand... haha... anyway... it was really fun over the weekend... where our whole nus swim team came together and had fun... haha... me and ade agreed that it brought us(the polo gals) closer to the team and that we are not that hated afterall!!! haha... and we were even more happy when we know that both edison and marcus love us to the max (if not, adore us)!!! WAHAHA...

oh what a wonderful day today!!! singing my favourite song to myself... 'I'M BEAUTIFUL... I'M BEAUTIFUL...' haha... crap... damn bored at home man... and i just thot of the shots of me swimming breaststroke during my 50m race on sunday... shit man... super ugly to the max lo!!! freaked out when i saw them... totally refuse to acknowlege that it's me... damn!!! and today during OM meeting... my project mate Ming Hui put a super ugly picture of me as well for our slides... SHIT!!! DOUBLE SHITTINESS... always ugly... i need to go for plastic surgery... (actually i'm trying to fish for compliments instead!!!) wahaha... okok... gotta go bitch with ade now... bye!!!

BUSY BUSY BUSY

I'M SAD!!! and super a lot of things to do... shall make a whole list...

1. OM project - just the slides first (due next Mon)
2. Ginvera project (due 8th Nov)
3. MNO project - my part (due next Mon)
4. OM test (next Mon)
5. Econs slides (next Mon)
6. MS tutorial
7. OM tutorial (don't know if there is or not)
8. 3 MNO learning journals (due 6th Nov)
9. OM full report (due 24th Nov)
10. MKT quiz 2 (11th Nov)

sigh... and i must stress that for all the projects... A LOT OF RESEARCH HAS TO BE DONE... it's not easy at all... sigh... no time to study OM at all... i'm reali sad and stressed... is pulling up my CAP score that difficult???!!! i feel like giving up suddenly... cos whether i work hard or not... i end up with the same grades... sob...

TERRIBLY UPSET

was very upset today... i failed another mid term... management science... i remembered studying quite hard for that... and it seems like i've studied the wrong way again... a lot of times... when i know that i studied hard for the test but didn't do well... i always tell myself that i've studied the wrong way and there's a need to change the way i study... but then... can someone just tell me what's the correct way???!!! instead of trial and error by myself???!!!

i don't really care about my grades in the past... but now... i realised it is quite important to have better grades... and all i hope is just to get average CAP scores... but i feel i'm drifting further and further away from my dreams... i almost burst into tears just now during MS lec when i saw my score on the screen... i was reali hurt and sad... and wondered y am i so stupid... i could only control all the way till i finished econs meeting before i let my tears flow...

now i'm all alone at home with no one to comfort me... i am not dwelling in self-pity... but i do hope that someone could understand my feelings and pull me up from the bottom-pit... and df kept disturbing me... i reali cannot take it anymore... i screamed at him when he called my hse and reali warned him not to disturb me again... i'm facing so much shit and i reali hope to get away from them... sob... i'm reali sad now...

THE BREAK UP

hey peeps... me and df broke le... on 19th Oct... Thursday night... around 10pm... that marked the end of our 1 year 8 months 13 days relationship... i have thought over it carefully and i feel that religion should come first... pastor joseph said 'do not be yoked with unbelievers' is not exactly a commandment... but more of like a principle... as non-believers often do not think in the same line as believers... so i guess i sld be more careful in mi future selection...

also... studies sld come first... i seriouly need to pull up mi shitty CAP score... and thankfully... i've got reali good frens like ck and sam who are constantly reminding me about our studying plan etc... haha... will definitely try mi best and i hope u both will always be with me!!! :)

ytd was sam's birthday... haha... mi and ck gave her a manicure and pedicure voucher which she can redeem at shopping malls near her hse... hee... hope she dun get cheated anymore!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM!!! :) haha... samantha is a reali good fren of mine who has super freaking long and skinny legs like those of chopsticks... i often think that i can easily break her legs into 2... hee hee... (oops... hope xiao bai doesn't read this and come after me... haha...)

okok... back to studying!!! i was so bored just now and i decided to doll miself up with the new makeup set i bought at sasa for $10!!! JIP JIP!!! :) haha... so happy and proud of miself... i've now regained confidence and no longer dwell in sadness... okok... it's STUDYING TIME NOW!!!

CAUGHT BETWEEN 2...

sigh... this post is dedicated only to those who knows about what's happening currently to me... this will mean only ck samantha sandra shuhui and yiting i guess... i'm in such a dilemma!!! somebody save me!!! wahaha... :)

bad headache

having super bad headache now... failed mi macro econs midterm... sianz... sigh... was dying in class just now lo... shall slp soon man...

I HATE SCHOOL WORK!!!