I MISS MY GRANDFATHER...

i just realised mi grandfather passed away ytd slightly before 5pm... but johnny called mi onli at 520... sigh... mom was telling me that he passed away in his slp... his heart beat was slowing down and onli mom was there to see the machine tt shows the heart beat etc go down to zero... at least he went off reali peacefully... and dad missed by just tt little bit cos he arrived rite after the machine went zero...

i am reali sad... and i cant even haf a peace of mind now... AUG trials... mid terms... referee course... coaching... tutorials... proj meetings and research... and i wanna go back to see mi grandfather for the last time as well... but i've got no time!!! if i go... i will haf to sacrifice smt... but wat am i gg to sacrifice??? argh... i'm sad... i'm pissed... i'm irritable...

was quite ok during and after service... but when i was on mi way home and mom called me... streams of tears ticked down mi face... and df cld do nth to help but to pass mi tissue paper... she told mi abt the funeral and all and said she will confirm with mi when i can go back by monday...

i'm reali sad... i can imagine mi grandfather's body alone now in the hospital... probably at the mortuary or smt... much administrative stuff has to be cleared b4 his body can be brought to the casket side... i hope he can be buried right beside mi grandmother... he must haf missed her alot when she left 16 years ago... i reali pray for his well being in heaven... i miss you grandpa... i reali reali miss u alot... i hope u'll find grandma and be with her so that she can take good care of u... i miss u sooooo much... :(

I REALLY MISS MY GRANDFATHER...

sigh... mi grandfather just passed away... yesterday... 15 Sep 2006... around 5.20pm... i'm reali upset... kept crying while mi and net were on our way to pick mary to eat katong laksa... sigh... cry until i had headache... but i insisted on gg trg... cos i din wanna go home alone... i will be even more upset tt way...

after laksa we went trg... it was ok la... swam quite abit... and throughout the whole trg... images of mi grandfather kept flashing across mi mind... i reali miss him... and i reali wanna be with mi family now... bro got no more leave from camp... but i think he's given 3 day compassionate leave... so hope we can both go hk and see our grandfather for the last time...

i reali miss mi grandfather... i'm very upset... mom was the onli one with him till the last moment... dad din make it to the hospital in time... i guess dad must haf been very upset abt tt... but johnny was telling mi tt grandfather left peacefully... and tt he was happy just to haf mom acc him by his side when he left... i hope i cld be there with him too... and i wish i'm in hk now with mi family... we definitely need each other's moral support...

grandfather was the onli main reason y our Chow family is still hanging on... 3rd aunt was already a lost sheep... den great aunt has her husband to see to... actually both sld enjoy their retirement together... sigh... uncle is busy with 2 jobs... earning just sufficient to make ends meet... so he dun reali haf much time for family as well... grandfather was the onli person who holds us all together... and with him around... it was the onli time where we cld actually all come together for meals... now tt he's gone... i dunno wat's gg to become of mi family and relatives...

in fact... i dreamt abt mi grandfather's death abt 3 nights ago... n when dad called mi the next day to tell me tt grandfather was not doing so well in the hospital... i feel helpless... like... so what if i know smt's gg to happen???!!! i cant leave just like tt... i've got sch proj meetings etc... sigh...

i'm worried abt dad... grandfather doted on him most among his siblings... and he's also very filial... so i guess he will be the most upset now... and i reali wanna thank God for creating the 2 opportunities for me to go back to hk to celebrate my grandfather's last birthday and spend quality time with him... or i might not even be able to see him again b4 he left... those were reali very happy moments where our whole Chow family came together for his birthday... and mi and joseph wld bring him out for meals with great aunt and uncle when dad and mom were at work... i guess i wun be able to look forward to this anymore when i go back hk next time... :(

i'm reali upset... and having very bad headaches from all the crying... i dunno wat else i can do now... i feel very lost suddenly... and i am totally not in any mood to do mi hw and study for mid terms... i wanna ask if i can skip the whole mid terms so tt i can spend more time in hk... but i dunno how to go abt doing tt... i'm so upset... but i've got so much work to do as well!!! sigh...i look forward to cell and service later...i reali need some counseling and strength from the almighty One...

BLUE BLACK!!!

diam it... got punched by prem on tuesday... now mi eye's getting worse... at first onli 1 small little red spot... now become 1 big patch... and the doctor said cos it's near to the eye... so will take abit longer to heal... shiatz... tmr somemore working... how to jian4 ren2 lo... sigh...

issit that bad???

can cover with mi specs rite???

i think can cover la... tmr shall just go work like tt... haha...

anyway... mom's back for the week... i'm so happy... haha... she's here for some trg... den she gg back on sat afternoon... :) miss miss miss...

shall go slp soon... so tired... i dun wan black eye rings to add on to mi bruise... haha...

KL TRIP 2

haha... finally got time to upload the pics tt we took in KL... thanks mary (for helping us take and sending us the photos!!!) wahaha...

1st stop... kajang satay!!! :)
the yummy thick satay sauce with chilli...

me and mary!!!
what a feast!!!

2nd stop at Ipoh!!! yummy dim sum breakfast... haha...

val and me enjoying the yummy black sesame paste... haha...

ooo.... yummy!!!

yummy carrot cakes... they look reali good from mary's camera... haha...

ooo... this is the muah chee that val and net's crazy about... haha... it's 'QQ' according to val and net dreams about it even when she's having lessons...

our act cute poses... haha... oh ya... and we got a summon of RM20 for not paying for our parking... haha...

got much more good stuff... but i'm tired already... KO... haha... so not blogging le... shall go do abit of hw and den go bathe and get ready to pick mi mom up... miss miss miss... haha...

oh ya... before i forget... i'm signing up for the singnet promotion with the Apple MacBook... so cool... new notebook man... and i'm meeting shu after sch on wed to get her wallet... den gg to jing xian's hse with my 2 big fat CPUs so that he can fix them for me... haha... den go for eye checkup at bishan for mi contact lens... ooo... cant wait for wed... gg off now!!!