Triple Sigh-ness

2 papers down... 2 more to go... sigh... MNO and MS quite ok la... but i damn scared of Econs (sat)... and i only studied 1 chapter of OM (4 chapters in total) (next tues)... sigh... i really hope the Lord will bless me for my MKT module... really really worried... SIGH!!!

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and 'he' (refers to you-know-who) is going back korea on 4th... 1 day before my final exams end :( but 'he' cannot stay any longer also... cause 'he' got to attend his sister's fashion show on the 4th itself... but 'he' said if 'he' can find a 1 month internship in some branded company here then 'he' will definitely come back... i super eager to find 1 for 'him' lo... sigh... anyone got lobang must intro hor!!! thanks thanks!!! :) cause if don't have... then 'he's' going to stay in korea for the whole dec holiday and go back US when 'his' school term starts... that means 'he' won't be back till next june... SIGH...

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sianz to the max... gotta study econs now... i totally don't understand anything lo!!! crap... SIGH!!!

I hate studying... :(

i am so sianz of studying :( i hope exams will be over soon... i'll be most happy when econs exam is over!!! may the Lord bless me... i definitely need a miracle to survive through this period man... awwwww...

In despair...

1 thing i must clarify... there's a difference between being disappointed and being angry... i don't always get angry with people... but when disapointment comes time and again... it becomes desperation...

that's exactly how i feel now... but it probably reads differently to different people... and disappointment comes with expectation... so in the first place... one should not give another expectation when he knows he will eventually disappoint her... it's like giving her hopes... and then dashing them in the end... one should always consider the feelings of another...

and this thing about apologising... when the word 'sorry' is used too often in any kind of relationship... one will get immune to it and eventually defeats its purpose... so it becomes meaningless to say sorry anymore...

i feel sad now... was talking to da sao about it... but she wasn't able to give me constructive answers... sigh... and df still hasn't give up yet... i'm sad for hurting him... causing him so much misery especcially when he's in NS now... but i guess you can't force someone's feelings as well... oh well... my econs sux and i gotta go study now... and we are playing against the indonesian girls again later at 7pm... i better go concentrate on my studies...

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oh... one last thing... high IQ is often associated with low EQ... i guess this is very true... because God is fair... and when u are dealing with people with low EQ... it's often necessary to be more patient and harden your heart to protect against constant hurt and disappointment... but what if you reach the saturation point and you cannot take it anymore??? for me... being low in determination... i'll choose to give up...

QUESTION!!!

should boyfriends send their girlfriends home even if their girlfriends have car and they don't???

PENANG MALAYSIAN OPEN

was in penang over the weekend for match... had super great fun except for the 10-hour ride to and fro... wanted to die lo!!! fortunately it wasn't tt bad afterall cause of the gossiping and charades!!! super funny especially with xiuxiu... wahaha!!!

me and xiuxiu!!! haha... rooming with her for the second time!!!

the matches were ok... we had 4 games in total... and the most memorable one was our last game!!! we played badly in the first 2 quarters... and xiuxiu kept screaming at us!!! freak... the score then was 2-3... and we were so panicky... with xiuxiu's demoralising screams... we felt even worse... so when there was an extra man situation in favour of us... and qian passed me the ball when i was at the wing... i was super hesistant to shoot!!! so i turned and looked at ade who was at the centre and our conversation went like this...

ade: JAC!!! SHOOT!!!
me: ARE U SURE??? CANNOT!!!
ade: YES!!! JUST SHOOT!!!
me (trembling): ARE U SURE ARE U SURE???
ade (exasperated): YES!!! CONFIRM CAN!!!

and throughout this period of time... i had the ball on my hand and i forgot to threaten!!! and the defender and goalkeeper in front of us were probably too engrossed in our 'freak show' (that's what xiuxiu calls it) that they forgot to come and foul us!!! and when ade gave me the 'CONFIRM CAN' signal... i took a shot and it went in top corner!!! haha... was so happy and thankful for ade for her encouragement!!! though it was quite funny that we had that kinda conversation IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GAME WITH MAN UP... it was really all cause of her that gave me confidence!!! haha... so from there... we caught up 3-3!!! and i also decided already... motivator of the year goes to ADELYN YEW!!! hee... in the end we won them 5-3 and it was really happiness when the game ended cause i got whacked so many times that i felt like dying...
oh... and this was taken at the place where i got the 'chiam see' for the previous post!!! haha...

really memorable :)

KAN4 XIANG4

i went penang over the weekend for the Malaysian Open and spent RM0.50 on this machine that 'tells your fate'... this is what i got!

He who gets this No. 12 is like a man dreaming when he sleeps. What you are going to do at present can hardly be successful for your luck does not permit at present. In future you will meet some people who will help and support you when you are in trouble. You are rather hopeless in love affairs, but in case of prosecution you are very lucky and may probably win the case. You will meet your friends and cousins who have left you a long time ago. Your luck for other kinds of business is not good.

what are your comments for this???

Flying to the sky!!! Happy to the MAX!!!

super happy today... after MS lecture... i went to eat pastamania with ck and sam... haha... so fun!!! was supposed to go to pizza hut... but stupid da sao got it wrong... telling us that there is pizza hut at harbour front center... in the end don't have lo!!! freak... so we went to vivo city to look for it... but don't have... -_-''' sianz diao immediately... so in the end decided to eat pastamania... and before we went back to harbour front center for our lunch... we went to m)phosis to get the pair of slippers that i always wanted!!! haha... it's the same pair as sam's... so cool rite???!!!

after that i went back home to do stuff and then went for the under-16 match against combined schools... was quite happy with the game cause ade praised me!!! hee... she said i made quite a few good passes to her at center forward... *beaming from ear to ear* haha... and cause right at the start before the match started... i promised net(our new goalkeeper!!!) i will help her defend properly... in the end... i got a total of 2 counter fouls(at the center back position) for her!!! and net also agreed that i did help her defend :) hehe... i really tried my best to fake and struggle and wayang and drown lo!!! and i was so happy to know that there was counter foul...

in the end the score was 3-8... though we lost... i think we played well overall... me and ade played full game... so happy... and we didn't feel tired at all... ade was centre forward (switching with val)... i think it was really enjoyable and i'm sooooo happy now... sulynn was damn good... scored 2 goals!!! and she was really tired... but she still piangz damn hard!!! zai to the max!!! haha... and i scored 1 too... it was a rebound from val's shot... but quite shitty cause i took another 2 shots that was beautifully saved by the keeper... shit... stupid small boy can jump so high... go and take part in high jump la... come and join polo don't know for what!!!

sigh... well... nvm... at home now... gotta start my MKT project stuff for tomorrow's meeting at 12!!! sianz... :( hope i get all my projects over and done with soon... and i got 3 learning journals to write too!!! shit... due next monday lo... kns...