tired from trg...

been trg under wang jiao lian these few evenings... wld say tt it's a rather good workout compared to normal swimming which is wat they players are doing... esp so when i hate free so much... sometimes i reali wonder y louis made the keepers swim as well...

went for sports massage with lynnette su-lynn and dyan today... i guess it was supposed to turn out fine... but den... i feel just the opposite... neck got worse compared to this morning... mi arms dun seem to get any better... shoulder aching still... and worse... new injury came when ooi leng's shot hit mi fingers this evening... right middle finger is swollen AGAIN... sigh... hate fat fingers... so ugly lo... kns...

nv liked it whenever mi fingers get injured... cos it brings inconvenience... almost cried juz now... so freaking pain lo... but well... i am sure in upcoming matches... there's bound to be more of these situations... gotta get use to it... sigh... btw... wang jiao lian said mi right side is weaker than mi left... made mi sound so retarded... haf to admit tt tt's the fact... and ooi leng's shot made this even more obvious as i was afraid another hard shot wld injure mi fingers further... sianz... this morning's massage is reali not of much help to me... sigh... i think slping is still the best la...

ivp coming up le... wondering wat events i sld take... most prob 50 100 200 breast... 200im and MAYBE 50 fly... tt's if i still haf the strength to 'fly' given mi aching shoulders now... tt sld be all... shan take 800 free afterall... *ponders* shall slp now... tmr still got morning trg... gotta wake up at 6am... yawnz...

TRAINING... SIANZ...

sigh... every morn wake up at 545 to go trg... so tiring... but reali muz say ah... the swim is alright leh... the irritating dips or pumping or watever u call it sux!!! do already totally cannot move lo... sigh... aching arms now... they are getting bigger and bigger each day... dead... think i need to cut down on food despite the intesive trg... den can lose weight... haha... morning breakfast shall take half the bee hoon only... :)

hmm... tv man just came... got new tv... YEAH!!! haha... but i dun watch tv... so wat's the pt man... joseph spoilt it b4 he went ns... damnit... so smart... den i gotta pay for him... sigh... he booking out on 22nd... sob... he called me juz to tell mi tt i gotta pick him up on tt day... SIGH... waste petrol again... yawnz... heck le la... i shall go meet yiting now at nyp... haha...

Holidays!!!

it's hols now... shiok... haha... but got trg everyday???!!! twice a day soon... sigh... back to the old swimming days... gg to get even more huge arms and thighs soon... hope i do get selected for commonwealth though... it may be a fact tt we are gg there to get thrashed... but getting selected is still an honour... *think everyone can get selected to go one meh* haha... :p

sigh... i'm jobless now... so sad... gg to work at singapore pools soon though... i will choose the morning shift... 8-3pm... go straight after morning trg... haha... shall ask them if they wan me to work for long... will continue working even when sch start... joseph gg ns on fri... sobsob... alone again... sigh...

reminds me of those tj times... where there's no tv... no one... nothing at home... only me and dear com... back to those lonely days... where i go home and face the 4 walls... it gets worse when it rains at night... gotta brave the thunder and lightning miself... and even worse if i were to catch a horror movie... will get super paranoid... sometimes to the extent of crying by myself... wondering y i am alone at such times when i so needed someone...

haha... tt explains my late nights with ming... clubbing... staying over at her house etc... it was reali a way to bring miself away from such loneliness... sigh... shi4 guo4 jing4 qian1... shan mention anymore... shall look forward to being alone again... hope things will be better... SIGH... pray hard tt i will get a job soon... keep miself occupied... dun like to rot at home also... :)

btw... i perm mi hair recently... haha... *though some piggish frens of mine say i look like auntie!!! bish* it's for a change la actually... had tt previous hairstyle since like dunno when??? forever tied up... haha... yawnz... now so late le bro still not back yet... sigh... heck him la... shall go slp soon... yawnz...