HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIFERN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heeheh..today is yifern's birthday!! hope she like the present i am gg to give her.... hehe.... starting from today i gotta work from 10-10 at seiyu bugis!! so sianz... sigh... and den it's like... i gotta sneak off to trg at queenstown den i sneak back to work after tt (cos work ends at 10 and trg ends at 9??!!).... sigh... so troublesome.. but no choice... cos this irritating woman will spot check on mi and mi partner at ard 945... so we gotta report to her... sianz...

today suay suay met mr andy at queenstown b4 trg... den of cos he blabbered on abt mi yifern ena fiona joining his side at teck ghee... saying tt it's under matthew tan (tan eng bok's son) and tt all ssa swimmers sld come back as we sld yin2 shui3 si1 yuan2.... wth.... like as if i give a shit rite?!?!! anyway... dearest yifern ena and fiona... i am following wherever u guys are gg!! ahahaah... so tired... and stupid kenryu is like slping halfway while toking to mi online?!?!!?! wat an ass... pls go and die... argh...

a levels results..... :(

i did sooo badly for a's... sigh... got BCC and c6 for gp.... cant even go anywhere...but nonetheless... i will be applying for NTU NUS SMU & SIM.... i will be taking business ba... yup... hope i can try mi luck and at least get into one uni... sigh... -_-''' rather disappointed with mi results... but den again.. given the amt tt i studied for(er...onli rite after prelims den i started??)..... i shall just be contented.... -_- wat more can i ask for??

& y cant any1 be sympathetic with mi ?!?!! thanks to sandra for her encouraing words... it's the best results i've got in mi whole tj life ... but still... sigh... others gimme words of encouragement too... but i know they think mi grades are shit... i've heard one unintentional hurting comment from mi fren... but it's okie.... i mean... yes of cos... i derserve this kinda results for the amt of effort i put in.. and i sld thank God for letting mi scrape into uni... or else i can juz go & die....& when i went out with mi frens... all of them got great grades (at least better than mine?) yet they can still complain tt their grades are like shit & they cant go anywhere etc... no one even knew how i felt (except shu) cos i was putting on a strong front.... if not wat....expect mi to cry there ah?? and of cos i thot it silly to cry too... i mean...i haf wasted enuff tears on HIM already,...even thruout a's n it's onli when i started work tt i managed to be soooo busy tt i got over HIM.... so crying is a BAD move...

sigh... oh well... i've got trg later... shall collect even more hurting comments & blog it down for review...

WAT I WAN NOW IS...........

firstly... of cos it's a levels.... & it's out tmr lo!!!!! i just wanna get into uni!!!!!!!!! not hoping for some fantastic superb grades... cos in the end... when u go out to work... nobody gives a shit abt it!!!!!! they onli care abt ur degree!!! ahahhaha... so if i screw up (touchwood!!)... den i guess i will go SIM (singapore institute of management).... the cost for a 3yrs degree course in business is at most $23000..... same as NTU and NUS!!!! wahahaahaha.... planned for backup liao.... hehee... checked it out with yiting ytd.... hopefully her mom allows her to go SIM man... ehheehehe... & SIM is backed up by UNIVERSITY OF LONDON!! sounds prestigious huh??!! ehehehehe....

secondly... it's to get a smaller apartment so tt i dun haf to clean up soooo much!!!! mi mom totally dun understand tt i am the onli one cleaning up the 2 houses for her.... mi bro just slacks ard whole day... diam it!!!!!!!! cant mi mom just sell the 2 houses and get a smaller HDB apartment!!?!?!! or a condo might be good too... as long as it's small and cosy!!!!! this amk house is too big tt it seems empty with just mi and mi bro... been staying alone since i was 17??!! so when will this loneliness and emptiness end?!!??!!?!! -_-'''

thirdly... of cos tt will be mi driving license... ehehehee... & hopefully mi mom gets mi a car after she's sold the 2 houses... eheheheehe.... and den i wanna take mi life saving BM (bronze medallion) and SIC (swimming instructor course)!!!! not saying tt i m gg to be a swimming coach in future... but it can serve as a backup for mi future in case i ever get retrenched or sacked and i wld be jobless for like MONTHS!?!?!?!?! like tt i can constantly keep mi income coming!! wahahhahaa... planning quite far ahead huh??!! ehehee...

fourthly... is actually to hire a maid to clean up the house if mi mom refuses to buy a new apartment... i am realli sick and tired of doing all these household chores... i've been a maid for like 3yrs liao??!! even b4 i stayed alone at bedok i've been cleaning the house for mi parents already (cos they sacked away our maid).... so all u ppl out there... pls do not take the cleanliness of ur house for granted... cos it's definitely not there without some1 cleaning it up for u!!!!!! wake up to ur senses n do some household chores urself NOW!!!!

lastly... it's actually to settle off the i-also-dunno-wat-it's-called relationship i haf with DF... he seems like mi bf even though i already rejected him alot of times??!! shimin will know wat i did... practically telling him tt i wun accept such an ugly person like him 2 be mi bf etc..... hahaha... kinda mean huh??!! but well.. once bitten twice shy.... not planning to get bf till i go uni... heheehehe.... but he's realli nice... sends mi home even though it's like soooo late??!! & tolerating with mi FOREVER pms...... & he got mi a crumpler bag tt i soo wanted badly like since dunno when for V day.... SIGH...... if onli HE treated mi this way in the past.... hmm... but well..no time for all these now... shall go yiting's house play mahjong first... den come home & spot check on this part time maid tt i hired miself... ehehehehe... & during march hols pom pom is actually bringing mi go buy oascis shoes!! eheehe...shu and wan... u all wanna come also or not... :> got 40% off leh!!! hahhha....oops... too jipoh le... WAHAAHAHHAA....

A LEVELS ARE BACK TO HAUNT ME AGAIN!!

diam it... results r out on friday 2.30... sigh... hope i can make it to a uni man(may God bless me).....i am not hoping for some super fantastic grades... but i hope at least can make it to a uni lor.... stressed...........................................

went seoul garden at taka today with shimin and auntie pauline for our farewell parrrly(tt's our common slang for 'party'... whahhhha)... den after tt went new york skin at bishan for facial... damn shit.. the consultant tok a whole shit abt signing package and made mi make an appt on friday 11am instead... gotta waste time go down again... -_-''' fine...shall just be jipoh and pay $10 ONLY(no extra!!!) and i just realised tt... after mi facial... i will be collecting a levels results.... FREAK!!!!!

hmm... spent $88 on xando meal replacements... i dun trust pills lah.. so i shall just take those meal replacements and starve miself to death... hope i can c some results man... as a sensualite promoter... i am so bloody freaking fat... wat's this man?!?!?!!!?!? argh....

& days back i had this imposter on mi blog.... it realli made quite an impact on me... guess onli yifern knows ba.....thot HE was back into mi life... but den... it was just a deception... oh well... it's already long over and i know i m not supposed to be pinning any hopes.... i will try harder i guess... yawnz....

tmr morn got driving lessons.... den yiting coming to mi house to do her project while i clean mi house... wahahaahha... alright... at least i haf a great pal with mi... sigh...shall go rest awhile now..... YAWNZ.......