Last Day of Internship is Finally Here!!!

Today's my last day at Citi!!! :) So happy!!! Haha.

SHITTY DAY TODAY :(

Bad day today. Don't know why. Just feel quite shitty. Last night was fun though. Went Zouk with Robin, Mark, Oscar, & Kenneth. Haha. Kenneth really can dance man. And Mark cui totally lo. CMI. Wahaha! Reached home at around 4 plus. And cause I told a cab home by myself, stupid taxi uncle asked me "why your boyfriends never send you home ah?" <-_-'''> I totally peng lo... Firstly, I don't have many boyfriendS... Next, it doesn't concern him why I'm going home alone!!! Argh...

Probably that's where the bad shitty day started. This morning I woke up at 845 cause I had to work. Stupid promoter job. (Ok la. Actually it's not stupid, it's quite high pay somemore. Haha.) Anyway, I woke up looking so freaking ugly and cui. Then I saw my ugly shoulders and big fat arms & thighs -_- Even more bad mood. And my luck hasn't been good. So that SUCKS even more. Like SUCKS BIG TIME... And it's not helping cause I keep blaming God for not helping me and all. I feel shitty and guilty, and I think I seriously need to get close to Him once again. I know I've been drifting away but I'm not making an effort to close up the gap!!! And I was soooooo freaking tired and cui the whole day and I'm super sore about today's sales results. Damn it... Too competitive le la. Sigh... How???!!! What should I do??? I need someone to cheer me up :(

And I need to find out exactly what the requirements are to get a direct placement in Citi asap cause bidding starts on Monday!!! I gotta consult the HR IC first before deciding if I'm going to proceed with my double major in Finance and Marketing. ARGH!!! I'm so confused :(

The Australian Women's Team is coming over on Tuesday, and we are sooooo going to get thrashed. Sigh. Cui to the max!!! My right shoulder is seriously coming off le lo. I need to go SSC real soon but I haven been able to find the time to go down :(

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INTERNSHIP IS ENDING!!!

3 more days and I'll say 'bye bye' to Citi. It has been a fun 3 months and a great learning experience. Of course, I've got more things to bitch about too!!! Heh heh. Nothing surprising la. Anyway, I'll be working for London Weight Management's Ngee Ann Opening this weekend. Sianz. After this, I'm definitely going to take a super long break and go for all the sports massage that I've been missing out cause of this internship. My right shoulder is like coming off soon lo. And the Australian team is stopping by next week. Shit la. Going to get thrashed again. Kns.

Can't make it for this sat's U-14 knock-out. Gotta work man. Sigh. Vitamin M is really damn annoying. But well, no pain no gain la. And my MSN is so screwed!!! I just can't log onto MSN!!! How come ah? Can somebody please help me??? I'm like freaking pissed off with this stupid MSN. Freak it... ARGH...

Hmm... Come to think about it, it's been quite a fruitful internship. I've made a few new friends!!! First on the list of course it's Elaine, aka Lao3 Niang2, and then there is Robin, aka Ah Cui, followed by Lauren (Labbit), Chris, Mark & Khai. I missed all the fun we had when we were still in Centennial with labbit and gang :( Our tone deaf labbit will sing a mono Wei4 Dao4 and we have our 'jio jio' gang too!!! And so many times we thrashed things out with our manager Dann and all the trouble that we've got into. Haha.

And cause there's no one in the office today, I slept from 3-5pm straight at lao niang's table. Haha! But I'm still feeling sleepy. Think I'm going to bed soon though it's only 2121 now. Haha. Ultimate pig...

i'm feeling sad...

Sigh. We lost again today. Agst National Youth team. We drew during the actual game and had penalty shoot-out. Well, I missed both my penalty shots :( I don't know why I didn't felt that sad just now after the game. But now here I am, sobbing away alone in my room. I closed my door so that my bro will not see me in this state. Sigh. And I really wonder why am I so shitty. What's the point of training so hard when I can't perform in the actual game?! I really suck. Then some of those polo guys named me '50 cents' and I bet it meant nothing good. And they commented that I'm lousy too. Sigh. I'm always affected by what others say about me. When will I learn not to take things too personally?

I prayed about my penalty shots just now, and I admit that it was wrong of me to blame it on Him for not helping me. I was really sad and disappointed with myself. And I can't stop crying. I think probably cause I feel really useless in the team . I can't attack for nuts!!! Why am I even playing in the first team in the first place? It seems like the Lord wants me to learn something from this, but I don't know what that is. Learn to be stronger? Learn to be more confident? Train harder? I don't know. I keep playing this song over and over again. Somehow, it does help to comfort me a little

In Christ Alone - Brian Littrell

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I'll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

Chorus:
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

WE LOST :(

We lost today's match. So sad. Lost to acsb. And I missed like so many thousand and one shots!!! Damn it. I suck lo. Argh.

And there is this idiot who keeps saying me NON-STOP!!! Say I greedy, always eating at work instead of doing my work. Stupid pig... He himself also damn fat still dare to say me! How dare him!!! Will kill him someday man...

And my irritating manager always say I damn stupid go and tie1 xiao3 peng2 you3 (I always date younger guys). Kns. Shall scissors cut him again someday too for saying that. Haha!

Think I am going to sleep soon. Eye bags are popping out!!! :(

GOSSIPS!!!

Went to one of my manager's place last night for his farewell party. His house is like HUGE ^10. That was the first surprise I got. Then, I heard some stuff. That this intern was the mistress of his house. *GASP* Stun to the max. Like seriously, she didn't even tell me about it. Nvm. Though she tried to cover it up, I could sense smt fishy.

Anyway, after scanning around the party, we 3 girls (interns) found something new!!! There were these 2 managers behaving a little... ... ... HEH HEH... And after much observation and discussion, our conclusion is that: THEY ARE TOGETHER!!! haha.

And, one more gossip is that, one of my managers from MacDonald House likes another manager from CTT!!! MUAHAHAHAHA... *and I know he is reading my blog right now!!! stop reading and do your work bitch!* haha!

What a fruitful night. So much gossips. Haha! Such scandalous ones somemore!!! And I heard right after my internship ends, the 3 managers from MacDonald House are going to shift to CTT together with the rest. I wonder who's going to be in MacDonald House after that. Sigh. I love MacDonald House!!!

my friends are leaving me :(

labbit (aka lauren choy aka p caddy) has left citi. and that shows that my internship is coming to an end soon!!! :) i'm super excited yet sad at the same time cause i like working at macdonald house. it's less stressful and more lively here! and most imptly, i have lao niang & labbit (she calls us quite often! hee) with me. hee. the gossiping sessions are necessities man! anyway, here are some pictures that we took on labbit's last day.

me & labbit!!! :)

labbit & chris!!! he always has this funny look!

the intern babes of citi!!! hee... quite bhb... wahaha!!!

interns from centennial tower and macdonald house reunite!!! :)

and after work that day, on our way to bala to meet the rest, me and elaine decided to take some pictures along our way!!! :)

SEXY!!! :)

and that night, i went to weiren's farewell party at scarlet hotel, passion suite! haha... it was quite fun and i met up with a few tj cg 20/03 classmates!

weiren & me!!! :) he served us with lotsa yummy spizza pizza!!! the mushroom chicken one is damn damn damn good!!! haha...

kat, evelyn, me, wanhui & fatty glenn!!!

me & simon (weiren's friend)

boon meng & me!

AND everyone's leaving for aus!!! sigh... first was weiren, then ming and sandhya!!! :( we went mambo together on the last night ming was going to be in spore... sigh...

ming, sandhya, me & nat

sigh... COME BACK EVERYONE!!! :(

Back from Jakarta!!!

i'm back from jakarta!!! hee... betawi was fun... the spore team won all the matches!!! :) both the men and women's team... well... of course there were a bit of bitching here and there but i'm glad it's all over :)

then when i landed on sunday afternoon... i literally flew to zouk carpark for the MILK run... 5.3km was a damn killer... but the worst was when i had to see him and his gf... sigh... probably it had always been one-sided... (somebody pls kill me now) i was busy sms-ing everyone... hoping that somebody would can keep me company but everyone was just not there... so i was left alone for a whole 40mins staring at him and his gf :( i stared at the ground for the longest time till lao niang came and walked me out to great world city... sigh... what a crappy day...

and now i'm like getting so emo... was listening to cai4 chun2 jia1's feng1 ling2... damn sad... that stupid guy in the thai mtv cheated on the girl... slap his bloody freaking face lo... damn it... argh!!!