Y DO ALL GUYS HAF TO BE SOOOO FLIRT??!!

i haf been trying sooo hard to control using the F*** word.... but finally today... i cldnt control anymore... i said tt dunno how many thousand million times to yifern.... damn shit... so irritated.... DF was like telling mi abt this gal at work whom he has hao3 gan3 towards??!! WATEVER LAH!!! tell me for wat?!?!?!?!? bloody shit.... so flirt den dun come chasing me can?!?!!?!?!? dun let mi haf any hopes on guys ever again..... i dun wish to pin any hopes.... not at all.... sob.... now i know y till now i still cant forget HIM..... cos i knew HE was devoted.... and HE never tells mi about any other gal..... HE made mi feel as though i was the onli one.... HE never makes mi jealous or wat..... i realli miss HIM.... no one can gimme tt kinda feeling again... i dun wish to cry... but toking abt HIM just makes mi feel tt HE was mi world.... and now tt i haf lost HIM.... without HIM now i am just like an empty shell.... perhaps no guys are serious abt relationships at all ba.... sobsob....

mi parents are back in spore... so happy.... mi mom cooked dinner for us tonight... so yummy... haven eaten home-cooked food for such a long time.... i miss johnny... he's all alone in hong kong.. spending the new year without mi joseph mom and dad.... sob.....

den i got bullied by cynthia (mi boss) today... she keep telling mi off for this and tt.... den wat's the point of mi pianging so hard for her for mi sales?!?!?!?!?! everyone else slacked like shit.... leaving mi the onli one standing there... chionging for sales for her from 11-9 everyday!!! i dun reap wat i sow.... i get shit in return... how can anyone understand mi??!??!??!

GET LOST TO ALL THOSE WHO HURT ME....... freak them all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!