TERRIBLY UPSET

was very upset today... i failed another mid term... management science... i remembered studying quite hard for that... and it seems like i've studied the wrong way again... a lot of times... when i know that i studied hard for the test but didn't do well... i always tell myself that i've studied the wrong way and there's a need to change the way i study... but then... can someone just tell me what's the correct way???!!! instead of trial and error by myself???!!!

i don't really care about my grades in the past... but now... i realised it is quite important to have better grades... and all i hope is just to get average CAP scores... but i feel i'm drifting further and further away from my dreams... i almost burst into tears just now during MS lec when i saw my score on the screen... i was reali hurt and sad... and wondered y am i so stupid... i could only control all the way till i finished econs meeting before i let my tears flow...

now i'm all alone at home with no one to comfort me... i am not dwelling in self-pity... but i do hope that someone could understand my feelings and pull me up from the bottom-pit... and df kept disturbing me... i reali cannot take it anymore... i screamed at him when he called my hse and reali warned him not to disturb me again... i'm facing so much shit and i reali hope to get away from them... sob... i'm reali sad now...