In despair...

1 thing i must clarify... there's a difference between being disappointed and being angry... i don't always get angry with people... but when disapointment comes time and again... it becomes desperation...

that's exactly how i feel now... but it probably reads differently to different people... and disappointment comes with expectation... so in the first place... one should not give another expectation when he knows he will eventually disappoint her... it's like giving her hopes... and then dashing them in the end... one should always consider the feelings of another...

and this thing about apologising... when the word 'sorry' is used too often in any kind of relationship... one will get immune to it and eventually defeats its purpose... so it becomes meaningless to say sorry anymore...

i feel sad now... was talking to da sao about it... but she wasn't able to give me constructive answers... sigh... and df still hasn't give up yet... i'm sad for hurting him... causing him so much misery especcially when he's in NS now... but i guess you can't force someone's feelings as well... oh well... my econs sux and i gotta go study now... and we are playing against the indonesian girls again later at 7pm... i better go concentrate on my studies...

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oh... one last thing... high IQ is often associated with low EQ... i guess this is very true... because God is fair... and when u are dealing with people with low EQ... it's often necessary to be more patient and harden your heart to protect against constant hurt and disappointment... but what if you reach the saturation point and you cannot take it anymore??? for me... being low in determination... i'll choose to give up...