You Give and Take Away...

You give and take away...
You give and take away...
My heart will choose to say...
Lord blessed by Your Name...

At this point of time, I really wished I could say that to myself, but I can't bring myself to. It's really painful when You take it away, it's just so hurting. I rather not have it in the first place, then having You take it away in the end.

If it was meant to be a prank, why make it so real? I am really sad. I have free riders in my project groups, I'm not training well and my competition is in 1 month's time... and I feel so shitty about myself. It's been a long while since I cried like this. I can't control myself and I blame Him. I just hoped to feel some love from You...