I MISS MY GRANDFATHER...

i just realised mi grandfather passed away ytd slightly before 5pm... but johnny called mi onli at 520... sigh... mom was telling me that he passed away in his slp... his heart beat was slowing down and onli mom was there to see the machine tt shows the heart beat etc go down to zero... at least he went off reali peacefully... and dad missed by just tt little bit cos he arrived rite after the machine went zero...

i am reali sad... and i cant even haf a peace of mind now... AUG trials... mid terms... referee course... coaching... tutorials... proj meetings and research... and i wanna go back to see mi grandfather for the last time as well... but i've got no time!!! if i go... i will haf to sacrifice smt... but wat am i gg to sacrifice??? argh... i'm sad... i'm pissed... i'm irritable...

was quite ok during and after service... but when i was on mi way home and mom called me... streams of tears ticked down mi face... and df cld do nth to help but to pass mi tissue paper... she told mi abt the funeral and all and said she will confirm with mi when i can go back by monday...

i'm reali sad... i can imagine mi grandfather's body alone now in the hospital... probably at the mortuary or smt... much administrative stuff has to be cleared b4 his body can be brought to the casket side... i hope he can be buried right beside mi grandmother... he must haf missed her alot when she left 16 years ago... i reali pray for his well being in heaven... i miss you grandpa... i reali reali miss u alot... i hope u'll find grandma and be with her so that she can take good care of u... i miss u sooooo much... :(