why do i feel hurt???

sigh... been feeling low these days... which is y sat was one of the rare days when i took the initiative to ask net out for a drink... in the end... she got cycling... so i went wala wala with qian and gang... it's really rare... cause normally i go when the rest are going and i tag along... this time round... i knew i wanted to drown my sorrows... so i took the initiative to get ppl to go with me... and i made sure i din drive... so i can drink as much as i want...

dressing up took my mind away from everything for awhile... i carefully drew my eye-liner and decided to have purplish lips that night... then i took train and bus to wala wala... must say... taking public transport to holland v was a killer cause it took me a whole 1hr 40mins from the time i stepped out of hse and into wala wala... it wld have taken me 1/6 of the time if i drove... freak...

nvm... in the end... i got a strawberry shake before having the volka orange that super kind qian treated me to.... it was one-for-one... so total... i had 3 drinks... quite tan dio... then i ordered 2 portions of chicken wings... not bad... after that... super kind munn sent me back home together with his frens (alex and gf)... slept at 3am... and i felt that it really took my sadness away... at least for that night...

then went trg on sunday... was super duper happy when val let me play on instead of subbing me out... cause i really wanted to play my heart out... i think i subbed out only for awhile during that 40mins of game... i wanted to forget abt my stress... hurt... anger... all negative emotions basically... i wanna forget abt what my frens said to hurt me... things like mean stuff and lies... though i know it was unintentional... it was definitely hurting...

i am a very emotional person... gan3 qing2 yong4 shi4... i still feel sad i dunno y... hurt etc... tt's y quite glad tt i'm gg st james with dom kevin isabelle and gang on wed night... hopefully besties ed and marcus can go too... sigh... then thurs gg for dinner with net qian prem and munn... val said she maybe gg also... must go man!!! the more the merrier!!! SIGH... i wanna be happy again!!! :(

actually... it's obvious when i'm sad... i'll have that CY's face (all bitchies sld know who this is... haha)... and i'll be quite moody and all... sigh... peeps!!! pls cheer me up!!!