back to amk house....
i think i am seriously becoming a big big panda liao... sigh.. i am soooo tired yet i can't slp...today mi mom and joseph gonna go back amk there to pray to mi late grandmother... still rem she was knocked down by this stupid taxi at like 5 plus 6 in the morning...just opposite mi condo (far horizon gardens) at amk there.... and i was in india at tt time...asia pac swimming champs... so i cldn't come back to see her for the last time... dunno y....but i feel that i onli start to realli learn to appreciate mi grandmother onli after she's gone.... sigh... y am i like this? totally a biatch... maybe it's true that we learn to treasure things onli after they are gone.... :<
i am having a bad bad headache now....i realli lack slp.... but i can't...gotta go down amk soon to help out with mi mom for the cleaning up etc.... sigh...den gotta chiong tmr's phy remedial hw.... so stress.... next monday got maths remedial..den friday got chem remedial...and ms wong gc wanna see mi twice next week....sobsob..... tt shows how much preparation work i gotta do.... SIGH!!! can i just go and die now?! had this 1hr talk with mr fun today... he was like asking mi wat i wanna do in future and all... den he was like saying for fun whether i wanna swim 200IM for tj again next yr...i was totally like 0_0'''...... NONONONONONONO!!!!! firstly...i dun wanna retain!! secondly.... i hate IM......no way am i swimming for tj again if i ever retain.... freak freak freak... *touch wood*
today is supposed to be this swimmers gathering during break and lunch...den sickening-ly... all the yr ones cldn't come for the break one.....but nvm...we took some pictures (took with pom..chin...shu...dong...whole swim team together...hmm..still got alot more lah...) during lunch and celebrated shu hui's bdae... wahahha...we gave her a nude bra and made her hold it up to her ** to take pic but she refused...den created such a big joke in the canteen cos the nude bra fell out of the box and she just grabbed it anyhow and chucked it into the plastic bag.... wahhahaaha.... freak lor....it's like seriously damn freaking ex lah.... den she just anyhow like tt.... freak freak freak!! next time dun wanna give stupid shu things liao.... hmph!!
sigh..now suddenly i feel tt mi right calf like cramp like tt.... freak....so I...RRItating!!!! sigh.... i wonder when's the next time i am meeting desmond again... i wan mi pay!!! argh... i wanna save up so tt i can go for slimming centres after a levels.... i am like such a fat blob eating and eating non stop lor....diam it... and now no more swimming polo and running.... getting rounder and rounder each day.... FREAK!!!!!! now i know y he dun wan mi liao.... goot.... nvm... i also got phobia of tt kinda shit liao.... i wish i nv haf to go thru tt again.... sometimes small little memories are already enuff 2 make mi eyes well up in tears.... guess i sld just be a nun for the rest of mi life...... wahahaaha.... but no vegetarian food for me!!! tt's definitely not enuff for a big fat blob like me!! WAHAHAHAHA.... shall go search for food now.... :> ehehehehehehe....
