it's all over....

i just called him to settle things once and for all... i told him i know he feels that i am pestering him and that he's avoiding mi and all... but i still asked him to meet mi tmr and he refused... he say if i got things to say den just tok rite on the phone... so i just went ahead... asking him the reason y we broke off.... but den but he cldn't give mi a proper reason(he say is cos i suggest it one.. and that watever i asked wun change anything)... and he told mi to give up(as in stop pinning hopes on him)... so i asked him the question that i always wished to haf an ans to... that is... 'so u dun like mi and will nv like mi again issit?' so he said 'ya'.... and i thanked him for being so frank....well..that's the end i guess... hurting...very hurting in fact(tt i know very clearly now)... but life goes on....

ah san..i guess at least things are clear now... i can fully give up hope already... at least glad that things are clear now... ah wan and boobs....thanks for telling mi tt he will 'crawl back to mi' etc...cos tt gave mi hope.... and help lessen the pain at that pt of time...

to all those out there reading mi blog and so clueless bout wat's gg on... so sorry i wrote mi previous postings in such a vague way.... well...i will come clean with all of u now... mi and him break liao.. on the 7th of aug... and it's a clean break.... i guess the onli hurting thing left is that during our last phone call.. he had to be sooooo irritated with mi... i guess i haf realli cheapened miself to the limit... all morales and self-esteem gone... i am totally in this pile of shit now and i feel that i can't get out of it.... things will nv be the same again for mi i guess.... all i can say is that it's all god's will... and i hope He can get mi out of this soon....

nO3s nT itZ oWn d3pTh, tiL` E hR o SEPARATION... says:
i dun wanna u dwell on him

jacchow says:
can u pls just like help mi stop mi tears or smt?

nO3s nT itZ oWn d3pTh, tiL` E hR o SEPARATION... says:
it's juZ a guy

nO3s nT itZ oWn d3pTh, tiL` E hR o SEPARATION... says:
i'm not saying tis cos i tink u're not serious

nO3s nT itZ oWn d3pTh, tiL` E hR o SEPARATION... says:
e pt is i noe u're god damn serious...tt's y i tell u it's not worth it

nO3s nT itZ oWn d3pTh, tiL` E hR o SEPARATION... says:
lve urself some morsels n pride honey

to mi dearest yiting... all i can say is that i haf no more morale and pride already...so sorry i disappointed u....i din mean to...