thinking of......

just came back from bryan chan's new house..... FREAK... it's how big lah!! diam it.... got swimming pool etc etc.. i seriously think can get lost inside one lor...freak...den it's like...he got 2 dogs and 1 cat and i am like so afraid of them lah....esp that ugly dog called muggie or smt??!! scary lor.....kept pestering us for food??!! diam....hahahahaha...but i am sooo jealous of bryan chan's bed...so big....freak...mine's like maybe 2/3 of his bed onli??!! sianz....b4 tt mi ming and shaowei were actually mugging at shaowei's house.... den we decided to go check out bryan chan's new house..whahaha... goot....

took bus 7 home... sigh..on mi way back.... i dunno y but i just felt sooooo emotional.....den i just kept tearing.... sigh...guess i still can't get him out of mi head..... y?! i already dump all those shit stuff out of mi mind liao... y are those memories still haunting me?! there's no way i can turn back time....(though sometimes i do wish i cld)..but life just has to go on....pls...just stop letting mi dwell into that pile of shit again....today shaowei was telling mi how shit he goal-kept and andy chin kb him like mad.... seriously i know how tt feels and i felt rather hurt n upset for him.... wo3 bu2 shi4 yi1 ge4 rong2 yi4 na2 de4 qi3 fang4 de2 xia4 de4 ren2....i realli need time to get over this.....prelims are coming and i dun wish to get some shit grades like FFF again?! i am trying to mug...but y do i still see him lingering in mi mind?! it's an involuntary action.... sigh...

i love da ge's story book... :> and mi mommy is coming back to singapore for awhile tmr nitez...at bout 11 plus.... so i will be gg to the airport to pick her up with joseph... sigh... i miss mi mom dad n johnny... i am reali sick of leading this life without mi family members ard mi...all i haf is miself miself and miself....i cry by miself at nitez.... and sometimes when i fall sick.... how i wished mom was there to make mi some herbal tea etc...... it's been 1 yr 8 mths... gg to 2 years soon.... i realli dun like this lifestyle.... this kinda freedom is good....but loneliness has made mi wild...made mi depend too much on ppl i like (love).......pls.... let these memories leave mi for good..... i just wish to go back to mi old self....

hahaha....i was just feeling so sad when yiming msg this to mi on msn....

CHARMINGZ! says:
u nv mention me (in mi blog) at all one.....

CHARMINGZ! says:
some kind of fren..

hahahaa...tt realli brightened up mi day.... oops...sld be nitez...hahahaha....thanks ah ming!!! ehehehe...